My Thoughts

Day 8 – Jan 21 I am exhausted today and not sure I can do this. But I know as soon as I say I can't, I can. I am good and mad. I am scared and unclear. Each day brings new challenges or brings the same challenges again and again. With every step forward, I swear there are 10 steps back. Today is more community service and a call from the doctor's office......chlamydia. It just gets better and better. I can do this...........I can do this. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Whitney is struggling with this, and today, I broke down. I did break down. It was not pretty. Then Whitney had a break down and cried. We have been discussing lots and lots how to handle this current situation. Jack texted me to tell me he misses her. It's surreal that he shows her so much attention when he bipassed Melanie and at best ignores Whitney. I am completely caught in a spiderweb. When I heard Coldplay's “Trouble” a couple da

I have long since ceased dreaming Of kisses under the mistletoe, Of kisses at midnight as the new year tolls. I have long since ceased dreaming Of happily ever after Smiles and laughter. Reality, like slow darkness, Consumes and replaces hope. I have long since ceased dreaming Of early morning kisses, Wishing wells and eyelash wishes. I have long since ceased dreaming Of love that conquers all, And head over heels falls. Reality, like dense fog, Shadows and smothers joy.