My Thoughts

Amy, Today is the epitome of Spring, one of those amazing days you would say actually "sang" to you.  White, puffy clouds linger so lazily in a crystal blue sky, and birds echo a chorus that drowns out humanity's presence  All afternoon I have wanted to spread a blanket on the cool, green grass and lie prostrate, immobile, completely still and get lost in all the possibilities of the world.  Although green is so often associated with envy, the green I see today lulls complacency and harmony.  It is the green of renewal, of possibility. I think of the stories you often told - the ones about running barefoot in the grass, about splashing recklessly in a cool stream and about long, lazy afternoons making shapes out of the clouds.  I always imagine you lost in a world of your own creation.  You may not know it, but the many quirky things you once did to escape a torture and to sooth a bruised soul are the very things that sustain me now. ...

There is no video with this song..........so I am playing with some other ideas to have just an audio file. For now, just click play as you read the journal entry.......... David Gray's song "A Moment Changes Everything" is a longer term than "Epiphany"......but they are the same. Post Note: when I uploaded this video and the first couple lines, I had a very clean idea of what I wanted to say, but then from the save til now, I forgot what it was. I did, however, capture a sense of my thoughts. Although at this point I cannot recall the exact moment of epiphany, I have experienced one in the last couple weeks. Related also to the idea of "breaking through to the other side", the once happy harmony I felt at work disappeared, only to be replaced with a great sense of stress and conflict. In my moments of extreme despair, I continue to pray for direction, knowing that God will hold me securely during the transition. Holding onto something as it disso...