My Thoughts

I carry a legal pad with me to every meeting or discussion and make notes each day on things I need to accomplish, projects to alter, start or complete.  Sometimes, I find myself daydreaming in the middle of a meeting and will doodle on the legal pad.  Usually, I write some long ponderance on the back only to find I need to copy it once the last page is used and the cardboard is ready for recycling.  The cardboard doesn't make a very clear copy, so instead, I will write them out............ #1... Striving Always to Improve, All the Barriers I will Move  (approx Nov, 2012) 5 things I'd do right now: Rebuild communities Advocate for students Teach low income to sew, craft, dream Teach Zumba Write a "how to" book I'd make my hair flaming red and study women I admire. I feel my obstacles are my family obligations and my lack of financial support. #2..... Ying / Yang  (approx Mar, 2013) There often are times when my mind comple...

Day 8 – Jan 21 I am exhausted today and not sure I can do this. But I know as soon as I say I can't, I can. I am good and mad. I am scared and unclear. Each day brings new challenges or brings the same challenges again and again. With every step forward, I swear there are 10 steps back. Today is more community service and a call from the doctor's office......chlamydia. It just gets better and better. I can do this...........I can do this. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Whitney is struggling with this, and today, I broke down. I did break down. It was not pretty. Then Whitney had a break down and cried. We have been discussing lots and lots how to handle this current situation. Jack texted me to tell me he misses her. It's surreal that he shows her so much attention when he bipassed Melanie and at best ignores Whitney. I am completely caught in a spiderweb. When I heard Coldplay's “Trouble” a couple da...