My Thoughts

Five for Fighting, "NYC Weather Report" One of my fav songs The original date for this post was 2010, but even after 5 years, this song still resonates with me.  Its lyrics are haunting, beckoning almost, to an ideal.  An ideal, not a specific time or place, but an ideal that I wish I could return to. I have been cleaning up my blogger account, moving the bits and pieces of my two novels into a word program to complete and edit.

01.04.2008 Where Am I?? Finally, we talked last night, and in complete longing, I thought so many things about where we both are...........so far apart. We've always been this far apart, and I just never would believe it. I've spent 2 years of my life so in love with you, or rather, the idea of you, that I couldn't breathe. My heart hurts beyond anything I have ever felt. Where am I?? Where is that special, funny, warm and sweet person you met?? I can almost hear her screaming, "let me in", and I am trapped, afraid. She falls in love so easily, gets hurt so often and cannot live with her own disappointments. But oh!!! How wonderful that feeling...............of loving someone so much you can't breathe. Well, you might not care about where I am, where I've been. I know you never have, and I needed the final clarification on that point. You gave that to me last nite. But, oh, oh, oh!! I, even through the pain and burning tears, am so much better ...