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There are so many things that I want to say and I don't even know where to begin.

I am so tired. I am tired of so much that there are just not enough words to make a list.

I want to believe in something bigger than myself, but try as I might, I just can't believe in anything.

And to top it all off this stupid voice recognition is taking longer - it's taking forever to post so that I have to pause in between thoughts which I don't want to do.

There is something missing in my life. It is in my soul or in my mind or in my heart. It is something missing ,something that is just not there anymore

I don't want to run around in circles trying to find it. I know that's not productive, but I desperately want to fill the void because the void hurts.

I am trying every day to write my 1000 words hoping that in all the writing I will rediscover my voice that I know has been lacking.

There is just not enough time in the day to write and teach and mentor and be a daughter and a mom and a friend. I have no energy for anyone, not even for myself.

It is a beautiful Autumn day.  The weather is finally turning cooler.  As the days end quicker, I want to find my pajamas and rest.

I want to rest.

Completely, I want to surrender and get some rest.


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