My Thoughts

Wednesday Jan 13 When the alarm went off this morning, I was not ready to get out of bed. Yesterday was a very trying day, and I felt as though I barely survived it. So, over my coffee this morning, I reflected on my own reactions, my lack of coping skills employed and what I might need to do differently to survive such a day next time. Thank God that I stuck to my diet and excercise regime. I am juggling 3 distinct male relationships lately............1 I want to pursue, 1 pursuing me and 1 that is a great friendship but moving in unknown directions. It is the 3rd one that is keeping me up at night. Facing the unkown is hard. I know, I know...everything is unkown. My friend Dusty keeps laughing at the influx of DRAMA. I hate drama. Gonna pause and listen to Natalie Grant "Held". So, today is a brand new day.a new day for possibilities. I have to have those. POSSIBILITIES Armor on...check. Meditation.....check. Daily Diet/Exercise planned........check. Buckled in wit...

Today has started off horribly............from my job side. Stress, stress, stress............OMG. If any day could undermind my success, it would be today. So, I have repeated over and over in my mind "I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me" Philippians 4:13 More later................ Well, today was better once I got home and had time to chill. And today, I only had 960 calories.

No Responses Yet I watched "Julie and Julia" recently which prompted me to take this weight loss idea into a blog format. Guess I need to watch the movie again to remind myself people will not automatically flock the first day. LOL Making it through my first day only 23 calories above my projection made me so happy. I felt completely empowered. I want every day past today to feel the same way. So far today I have only consumed about 640 calories, so I am pretty set going into dinner. I managed to walk stairs today!!! Woo hooo I have told everyone at work that the new healthy me is here to stay. I found healthy choices on the new Taco Bell fresco menu for lunch and encouraged everyone to walk with me. Dusty did walk stairs. Wooo hooo I am taking a break from "educating" myself today, mainly because I have some other things to do that need my immediate attention. Tomorrow is another day.

Healthy White Chili 4 cups chicken broth (canned or from boiled chicken) 1 can white navy beans 1 can white kidney beans 1 can cream of chicken soup 1 cup chopped colorful bell peppers 1/2 cup chopped onions salt, pepper and chili powder to taste I use the back and neck of a whole chicken for this. I then pull off all meat and chop the liver into my broth. Add the peppers and onions and cook for about 10 minutes. Then, add the cans, salt, pepper and chili powder to taste. Cook an additional 30 mintues on low. Sprinkle with grated cheese and eat with tortilla chips or warmed up tortillas. Your biggest "junk" food comes from what you put on top. Skip the cheese and the tortilla chips to maximize the health benefits.

Sunday's Food Journal Breakfast 1 hard boiled egg, 1 slice wheat toast, 1 cup sliced pears Roughly 300 calories, 2 g fiber and 11 g protein. I started off this way, determined to keep tabs on all my intake, ect. In search for an online calorie dictionary, I found a great way to track my journey. www.everydayhealth.com I love it so far. Today was only 1323 calories and well within my range for fat grams, protein and fiber. The website also helps me track my water intake. Tomorrow will begin an indepth discussion about how the body works and why eating healthy is so important. I did take time to share what I've done so far with Melanie who needs to lose 30 pounds by May. Maybe she will learn something, too.

Ever hear the expression "selective hearing"? I am sure everyone has. It is true. We can selectively hear things. We each have that awesome power. What you choose to hear has a lot to do with the information you are inputting into your brain. Somehow, you have to hear only the truth. Part of this is attached to your eyes as well. It is not good enough to close the eyes during a commercial if you leave the volume up. Probably the hardest part for me is to hear only positive comments about myself. Ephesians 6: 10 - 18 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day. 1 Thessalonians 5:8 But since we belong to the day, let us be sober, having put on the breastplate of faith and love, and for a helmet the hope of salvation. An officer I worked with at Brownwood PD provided me these examples on how to withstand the attempts of the enemy to undermine us. Each day, I have to visualize myself, like a policeman, putting on all my def...

My response to Practical 1: I have wanted to loose weight for a very long time. It's time. For one thing, I cannot qualify for my insurance to pay for a breast reduction at my current weight. Secondly, I want to run again. And lastly, I want to truly enjoy my empty nest time by being active. While 42 is not old, it is not 22. I have more wisdom and courage now than I have ever had. I have the tools to reach my optimum weight and to maintain it. Finally, I am ready to admit that I am not perfect. I know God loves me just as I am, and He is disappointed. What I understand now is that diappointment is not rejection. So, I want to celebrate the life I've been granted. As a mom, I would be soooo sad if one of my children sacrificed their lives for another and that other person turned around and wasted the gift my child gave.

So many times I have heard that the best way to learn something is to teach it. I know this is true through my own experiences as a teacher, so I thought I'd take this approach to getting a healthier lifestyle as though I were teaching others how to do it. What I don't want is to sound like an expert or to come off as preachy. Instead, I am truly teaching myself. If I were to teach this class, I would need to develop a lesson plan. So, in a sense, I have. My objectives are: strengthen, maintain, empower. I will do this through studying, hands on applications and periodic assessments. My intro to this lesson would be something inspirational, something practical and simple. I was in the shower and thought about this: The task of attaining a healthier lifestyle all begins with the head. Starting at the top, the brain has to have knowledge (input) to fully comprehend what it is being asked to do. After all, a computer is only as good as its programmer. The part of the bra...

So, today I am gonna begin this new journey to self discovery and awareness..........and I want to blog my experience to track what I am doing and to hopefully measure some sucessful progress. It has taken me a while to get truly serious about losing weight. So, I am gonna blog my efforts.......what I eat, what changes I make and especially the baby steps I take to get completely to a great workout just for me. Woo hoo..........I can do all things through Christ who empowers me!!!

i haven't been here in a long time..........i have tried other "blog" mediums and have come back here cause it is just too hard on other sites. i have some old stuff i will be uploading as well as some new stuff to share finally i understand that i do so much better when i write.......when i take time to put to pen all my thoughts and fears, my successes and failures........but more importantly, i finally understand that all life has DRAMA time to embrace: you know, ACCEPT.........and move forward into the beautiful life i am blessed to possess